My journey to becoming a mother of three was not an easy one. After the birth of my second child I suffered severely from depression after my horrific birth experience. I had an amazing birth experience with my first born. Having my daughter was a such a rewarding and joyful experience my husband and I didn’t think twice about having another child. The day my son was born was one of the best and worst days of my life. The day was a result of a comedy of errors and just plain cruelty from someone in a position of power who was willing to abuse it. It took almost 3 years to climb out of the darkness that was my postpartum depression. The decision to have another child and put myself through that experience again was a difficult one for my husband and I to make. I’m so glad we did. The birth our son Declan gave me some closure from my horrific experience last time and the joy of having him is beyond words. He healed a piece of my heart and soul that so desperately needed to be fixed. My best advice for any mom to be or new mom is to be your child’s and your own advocate. No one knows how you feel except you, no one knows your body like you do. No one knows your child, how they behave and what their “normal” is. If something doesn’t feel right, say something. If someone makes you uncomfortable or uneasy, say something. Don’t be afraid to stand up for your baby or yourself, no one loves them like you.